Like most people, I do not enjoy being miserable. But I do understand that things do not always go as planned. We lose loved ones, relationships become broken beyond repair, plans fail and discontentment always finds a way to creep in and kick us when we are
down. For me, these are the moments where it seems that God is drifting farther away, and does not care about my feelings. Although I know this is a ridiculous thought because the Bible states that God is love (I John 4:8). If He is love then there is no way that I can reasonably believe He would just stop caring about me or abandon me when things are rough. This means that the problem has to be me.
My soul is bereft of peace; I have forgotten what happiness is. – Lamentations 3:17esv
The truth of the matter is that if I (and really all of us) am honest with myself, my expectation of God is, at times, to be more of a magical “fixer” than the almighty, all-knowing, infinitely loving being that He is. Sometimes I go through life making the same mistakes even though I should have already learned the intended lesson from a previous mistake. And when I end up in the same hole that almost claimed my life the last time, I find myself saying “why didn’t I learn the last time?”
Every time I have fallen short has turned into a beautiful opportunity for me to recognize my insatiable need for God’s love, grace and mercy. It has also been a constant reminder that if left to my own thoughts or if led by my own desires, I will almost certainly always choose the wrong things for myself. What I have come to learn is that my finite foresight plus stubborn selfishness creates a very incomplete version of a “big picture” for my life. If I don’t trust the infinite wisdom used to create God’s plan for my life then I will always end up doing the same thing that I have always done and getting the same results that I have always gotten.
I know I usually post they lyric version of a song, but this video really tugged on my heart. As you check it out, take time and think about areas that you are not pleased with in your life and ask yourself if the path that you chose or if you are entrusting your life into God’s hands?
And Jesus answered them, “Have faith in God. – Mark 11:22esv
Grace and peace